alone

I need to find some kids my age,
or at least that's what they say.
I would rather read and write,
whil the others would go and play.

I like to be alone,
where no one else can see,
the way my life is,
was and always will be.

I fear connection with people.
I hope they never know,
how my life is filled,
with such suffering and woe.

Please don't take pitty.
For pitty is not needed.
Nothing will go wrong,
if my warning is headed.

Stay away, don't love me.
It would never last.
For my life is best spent,
living in the past.

I once was a child,
who had nothing to fear.
I always had my loved ones,
so close and so near.

But then life changed,
and people went away.
"only for a while"
meant that is where they'll stay.

Now you see why I cannot love.
It only brings pain.
The only comfort I now have,
is the gentle patter of the rain.